Dear Balun...Loving can hurt

Dear Balun,
As we drove along I had a song playing in the car which you have heard many times.
Each time it has played you have asked why does he say, "loving can hurt".
And many times I have explained the reasons I believe loving can hurt sometime.
Today the words I spoke made sense to you. I can't remember exactly what I said but I spoke of a loss dear to me and our family. I spoke of a different few things and all the time you just listened.
you then looked straight ahead for a moment and then looked at me and smiled gently,
"I know now mummy why he says that".

I smiled gently at him and thought how can a little one understand that loving can hurt sometimes and break our hearts.
Us, big people know that love can tear a heart apart.

I then spoke to you and how love can also heal and make life wonderful, loving is precious and makes our days happy and warm. I spoke of how love is magic and I squished my body and hands up and closed my eyes for a moment, sighed and said " I know you feel that"?

His smile turned into a big glorious smile and he touched my hand.
I then put a happy song on and we sung very loudly, well Bridie and I did and you continued to wonder as we drove.